July 2010
Ho. Lee. Shit.
Did he expect me to read his mind? Communication is key, enough with the avoidance please.
fgt.
me: well i'm going to put this out there that i leave in about a month and this is frustrating me 'cause i am not having fun like i wanted to. instead it's stressing me out and putting me down.
liam: i dont want to be holding anybody back.
me: what's that mean
(no reply)
me: is there someone else?
liam: no thats not it at all its just i feel like i cant commit. or i dont want to commit to anything. i mean your gone in a month. you should do what you want.
me: when did your opinions change?
liam: i dunno its just been more evident as of lately i just didnt know how to say it.
me: fuck that pisses me off. i left people to be with you, it was you all along that i wanted to be with. but hearing this now just unbelieveably hurts.
liam: i figured id hear that. stings a little more then i thought it would tho
me: well what did you expect? honestly i feel like i'm being avoided and it fuckin hurts.
liam: i dont know that to say. dont have much i could
me: all i want to say is what the fuck.
(no reply)
me: i just shake my head at you, i want to be with you but i guess the feeling isn't mutual. i just feel vulnerable.
(no reply)
me: i'd like to talk to you about this but you're probably busy and probably not interested.
(still no reply)